The Magic Fiddle, And My New Love

Some days are just magical.

I mean, most days are, but some stand out for sheer perfection. I’m seeing a lot of those right now, but I’ll just give you an example, last week when the weather was still mild and sunny. I’d had another wonderful day learning about advanced wound care and talking to my lovely colleagues, and then on the way home I stopped by the health food store.

The sun was still shining (a few months ago it was already dark when I drove home from work!) and when I went to pay for my parking, I passed a fiddler playing trad in the street. I listened for a while and dropped a coin into his hat, and then accompanied by the music on the air, I went to buy some whole-food ingredients for more gorgeous, nutritious, and oh-so-yummy meals.

Then I went home to my new love. My love is black and sleek and sexy, and we have a date every evening, one as delicious as the next… I’m talking about my new food processor!

You see, I decided that with all the saving I’m doing, not going out, not buying more than the most essential of clothes and the like, it was time to spend some money on a. myself and b. some amazing friends I love so much I want to give them the world. I ordered a Kenwood food processor for me (it was reduced in price, so I paid under 100 Euro! We were clearly meant to be together), and some presents for the aforementioned friends. When the last of the presents arrive, I’ll pack a parcel containing my heart, and send it off.

I’m all warm and fuzzy.

As for the food processor – I can’t believe I’m writing a blog entry about a food processor, and be excited about it – that was necessary because so many of the ingenious Emily‘s recipes require one. How come I un-cook raw food these days? Well, it was like that:

Remember how I wrote a while ago, that I’ve freed myself from the pressure of being thin, of conforming, of “being good” – and how I’ve completely dissociated food from my own self-worth? That I love my body curvy or not-so-curvy? All that is still true. Actually, it’s true more than ever.

Over the past few years, I needed some protective layers because I felt I had to put on a different persona for my daytime work. I wasn’t happy in those places, although they had their redeeming factors, like a few precious people I can relate to and became friends with. I loved my expanding body; it’s exactly what I needed at the time, and with my long-fought-for freedom of judgment, I was and still am at peace with myself.

Now that I can be ME at work and enjoy every minute of every day, I found that I don’t need the protective layer any longer, nor do I need the fatty, unhealthful foods I have been eating. I don’t actually like junk food, I find it distasteful, and so I started to eat whole, taste-explosion types of food like the above vegan pizza, or the to-die-for raw lasagna with cashew cheese and broccoli sun-dried tomato pesto.

I’ve done this for nearly four weeks now and while I eat about 80-90% vegan, I’m not putting labels on what I’m doing. Why? Because you can be vegetarian or vegan and still eat crap like sugar or processed plant-oil fats like margarine (yuck!!). My motivation is different, and simple – I eat what does me good. All my life I’ve been in mild to moderate pain from my digestion. I thought it was NORMAL because it’s all I’ve ever known! Only recently did I realise that when I cut out sugar, gluten, and dairy, the pain miraculously disappears.

And that’s the sum total of my philosophy. You won’t find me preaching! It feels good and tastes amazing, so I eat it. If it stops doing me good tomorrow, I’ll start eating differently tomorrow.

It’s so simple.And having known eating disorder and guilt and shame around food, I’m eternally grateful that I’ve arrived in this place. I’ve never enjoyed eating so much. And now excuse me while I devour the last of the chocolate almond butter cups!


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18 thoughts on “The Magic Fiddle, And My New Love

  1. Thank you ❤ It does feel amazing! And as for the almond butter cups (and other sweet recipes by Emily), they taste just like conventional sweets and it's hard to believe they're healthy and contain NO sugar!

  2. Wow, all that food sounds amazing! I'm on a quest to eat less gluten as well. Luckily I live in a place where junk and fast food is hard to come by, so I eat much fresher, but I'm still consuming too much wheat and carbs. Kudos to you for making the change!

  3. That pizza looks SO yummy – it's making my mouth water! I love that you love your food processor – I feel the same way about our Vitamix. It just feels good to eat the yummy food. Congrats to you for giving your body food that feels good for it. 🙂

  4. It does help to have lovely fresh foods available, doesn't it? I'd say, check out Emily's blog and just make a few of those recipes, it'll automatically get you to eat less wheat. I accidentally ate some gluten last week and was astonished at the amount of bloating and pain that followed – I'd already almost forgotten about them after only a few weeks! 🙂

  5. Food processors make it SO easy, don't they? I can't believe how tasty the food is, when it only takes 10 or 20 minutes to make. I'm the worst and most impatient cook in the world, so it's perfect for me 🙂
    Thanks for stopping by, Jodi! xx

  6. I got a food processor for my birthday last year and I'm in love with the thing! I'm so glad your life is full of happy things right now 🙂 May it continue! Also my allergies completely went away when I gave up dairy products.

  7. It's amazing how great it feels just to give up the bad stuff, let alone feed our bodies with good, whole foods, isn't it? 🙂

  8. Hurray for you!!! I am defenitely checking that blog out… it sounds like the stuff I like too! The only thing is that my family will probably not follow the example 😛 it's not easy to make food for myself apart, and make other food for everyone else …But I guess I can defenitely try… I'll look up some of those recipes!!! I have a lot of trouble with allergies and eczema too and who knows it might just help! thanks for the tip!

  9. Good luck! The thing is, once you make food that's so delicious, nobody will care whether it's vegan or not. Those desserts are to die for, and so is the “lasagna” I linked above. With the lasagna, the rest of the family can eat some grilled meat with it if they insist 🙂

  10. Hey Sibylle! heehee, Kenwood food processor – it's a great blog entry on the food processor, you should let them know! This is perhaps the healthiest pizza I've ever seen!
    And many congratulations on the body love revelation, this is huge!!

    much love

  11. Hehe 🙂 If you had told me five years ago that I'd be raving about a food processor, I wouldn't have believed you! And yeah, it does feel amazing.
    Much love! xx

  12. Those were truffles, Jose 🙂 But I'm going to try something different this weekend, and if that works out I'll bring it into work on Monday!

  13. Ah !!! yay!!! I can relate so much. I feel super since I have cut out dairy, sugar and wheat. And I love eating healthy food, no guilt, no calorie counting, nourshing. Real food, nothing from packages, straight of the land, local food. I also have a history of eating disorders and it feels so free to nourish and to appreciate food. It is a friend not the enemy!

  14. That's a wonderful way of saying it! Yes, it's the sheer beauty and taste of these whole, raw foods that has got me enthralled. And no, I don't always eat raw, but something like oven-baked potatoes with lactose free soft cheese are just amazing 🙂

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