Our Way Is The Secret Way

The darker it gets, the more impact has the light. These days when I leave the house in the morning, it’s still pitch dark, but at the current phase of the moon, She is there in the black sky, unfailingly guiding me and providing her mysterious indirect light.

I’m never more aware of the moon than I am during the Dark Weeks. She’s such a comfort, especially now in the shape of the Crone who teaches us not to be heroes, not to do great deeds, but only to endure. It’s a much-underrated skill, to endure.

There are reasons why I chose to begin the yearly “13 Moons” ecourse for women in the winter. It makes for such a lovely journey, starting in the dark with Her as the only light, and then going towards and through the bright seasons, only to go full circle then back into the night.

Quite a few women have done the course by now, and the feedback I get most often is that the women enjoy to be DOING things, rather than just reading about them. I use one moon goddess per moon cycle, not one each week, because that might be fancy and tickle your mind, it wouldn’t change you the way regular meditations, walks in nature, attuning to the moon and Her phases, self care and crafting will do. This course is about getting in touch with your deep inner sacredness, your core as a woman, and that can never be accomplished by just reading.

The course is open for sign-up, btw! It’s going to start on the 5th of January, on the full moon. I hope many are going to join for a memorable journey through the year, together.

Sometimes I wonder if November/December could be the “witchiest” time of the year? There is so much time for reflection, evaluation, introspection, as well as planning for the future. I do an awful lot of hibernation these days, I almost feel bad about it. Thank the gods I’ve got my Coaching clients to keep me connected and communicating. They inspire me endlessly. It’s such a privilege to be part of their journeys too.

Maybe a time of darkness is also a time of secrets. My friend Kristian shared something so beautiful on his Facebook page today, I feel compelled to share it, and I’ll close this entry with it. It’s a quote by Jack Parsons:

“We are the Witchcraft. We are the oldest organisation in the world. When man was first born, we were. We sang the first cradle song. We healed the first wound, we comforted the first terror. We were the Guardians against the Darkness, the Helpers on the Left Hand Side.

We are on the side of man, of life and of the individual. Therefore we are against religion, morality and government. Therefore our name is Lucifer.

We are on the side of freedom, of love, of joy and laughter and divine drunkenness. Therefore our name is Babylon.

Sometimes we move openly, sometimes in silence and in secret. Night and day are one to us, calm and storm, seasons and the cycles of man, all these things are one, for we are at the roots. Supplicant we stand before the Powers of Life and Death, and are heard of these powers and avail. Our way is the secret way, the unknown direction. Ours is the way of the serpent in the underbrush, our knowledge is in the eyes of goats and of women.”

The Dark Weeks And The Deep Inner Life

How do you turn the inside out? It’s not like nothing is happening at the moment, it’s just that most of it happens deep inside so I’m finding it hard to blog about it. It’s the time of the year, the Dark Weeks, like the world is holding its breath for the arrival of the Solstice and the return of the light. I’m all entangled in that energy and don’t do much at all – lots of time for myself, staying at home with my budgies, reading or gaming, but oh how rich is the life underneath the surface.

I had a week and a half off work in November, and it was a “holiday in World of Warcraft” for me – the new expansion had just dropped and it’s beautiful (the picture above is a screenshot from one of the gorgeous new areas in the game), and so I spent a lot of time online with my gaming friends, some of whom I’m very close to. It was great and just the amount of contact I needed!

The rest of my time off was spent in planning, dreaming, and taking stock of my life. It was a sometimes painful process with all sorts of emotions coming up. I cried, I laughed, I sat in meditation, I danced. And all along I wove the threads into the tapestry of my life. I caught a glimpse of the future, too.

Too much waffling? Well all right, here are the results:

I have affirmed once again that even with a good day-time job in a decent company, my goal is and remains to work from home in the foreseeable future. My deadline for this goal is summer 2016, but if it should be possible earlier, I’ll do it. And no, I have no idea whether it’ll be in my current job or another one, I just know that this is where I want to go.

It makes sense when you consider that I’ll have a bird sanctuary and will have to be there, to drop in for a few minutes during lunch to check on a sick bird or simply keep him company. It’ll also eliminate any commute, so as soon as I finish work I’ll be THERE and with my birds. I used to work from home for 5 years a while ago, and I know I’m well suited for it and have the discipline required, as well as a fully-equipped home office.

I’ve also outlined the structure of the bird sanctuary. I’m going to have to register as a charity (don’t know the details of that just yet, but I’ll find out) and take donations. I’m planning an absolutely revolutionary system where I actually publish the sanctuary’s bank statements on a website every month and tell everyone who donates, exactly what happened with their money. There will be options for once-off donations starting at 5 bucks all the way to “adopting” a bird for 10 EUR a month. I can practically see the website in front of me, hurray for creative visualisation!

I’ve also seen the future of Gentle Miracles Coaching. It’s on a good path, and the main thing is to keep investing my energy and love into my newsletter and the work with my clients, and listen, truly listen to what they have to say and where they need support.

These are just the milestones. I’ve outlined my plans for health, exercise, the way a typical weekday will look like, and much more. I spent time telling my budgies about this future, and how wonderful it’ll be, and they listened attentively, all fluffed up and comfortable – I believe they know I’m promising them this future and that they can count on me.

Seen from the outside, none of the above looks very exciting, does it? But there is so much going on underneath in these Dark Weeks.