Nine Years Of Love


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On to what I meant to tell you about. As some of you know, I’ve had a hard time with my budgies this past year and a half. After five years of bliss, with no bird ever sick for even a day, several of them died due to things I had no influence over – tumors, an incurable sickness one of them carried into the flock (it was dormant for years and broke out when he was under stress from losing his mate), old age. I was left with only two birds, one of whom was a young budgie who, as a chick, had had a horrible disease which left him unable to fly. Budgies who survive this disease are left infertile and generally weakened. Laeas’s sister Miko died at six months old, from a horrible tumor on her back.

I never told anyone – I honestly couldn’t deal with explaining it – but about a month ago, Laeas also developed a tumor, on his right wing. I recognised it immediately, and when it started growing, I knew what I had to do. I didn’t want to wait until it caused him pain, and since I don’t believe in surgery on budgies – it’s very risky on such a small organism, just consider that a budgie has about one spoonful of blood in his entire body – I got an appointment at the vet’s on Wednesday morning, who gently put him to sleep. I held him as he fell unconscious.

When he was gone, we had a look at him and found a second tumor under his other wing. The vet just looked at me and said: “You made the right decision.” It’s good to know but I still miss my Laeas so much, and what’s worse is that Tracey was left all alone, she who had known a flock all her life.

I couldn’t face going through it all again, so I asked around for anyone with an aviary or at least two other budgies, who could take my Tracey-girlie. But there is nobody. It convinced me more than ever that a sanctuary for pet birds is truly necessary in this country! I’ll keep looking for a new home for her, but I couldn’t leave her alone all this time, and so today, I went out and got a young male budgie. If I find them a new place, they’ll both go together. This is him in the picture above (and below). Meet Tino!


Isn’t he a cutie? Tracey seems to think so, although he’s a little too in-your-face for her in his youthful enthusiasm, and she has been biting him, but not in a bad way. They are in their separate cages for now (I got a smaller cage for him that I’ll be able to use as a “hospital cage” and for transport in the future) but the doors are open and they’ve been flying through the room together. I think Tino is very good for Tracey, who never flew to the bookshelves or the wardrobe when Laeas was there, because he couldn’t follow her. Now she has an incentive to explore, and to move around more.

Looks like I’m going to have to get my act together and find a place to buy, and start my sanctuary. I’m going to have to get help to do this, because I want to stay mobile and be able to travel without worrying, and I’m going to need funds as well. But all in good time. This dream has been long in the making, and it’ll be another few years yet before it becomes reality.

What’s important now is that Tracey has company again, and both her and my heart will heal. We still miss our unquenchable, cheerful, mad hatter Laeas, but now that we can fall in love with Tino, things will be easier.

More pictures – and videos! – to follow!

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8 thoughts on “Nine Years Of Love

  1. backtomoonfaery

    Oh dear, so sorry for the pain you had to go through. I felt it through your words…. Their souls become such an important part of your own. Much healing to you and the flock.
    Tino is a cutie pie!!!!!
    Big Big hugs and much love your way!

    1. Thank you ❤ Little Tino is adorable indeed! I just hope that I'll either find a perfect place for them, or that this'll at least be the end of the heartbreak and dying.
      Hugs back!!

  2. It’s heartbreaking to let go of a pet. I’ve done that too. Huge hag hugs.
    Tino is super cute. As for the sanctuary, you have a clear goal to work towards and instead of “someday in the future” you can set a date on things. That will propel you forward faster.

    1. Thanks 🙂 The thing is, I no longer really have a date or a clear plan, since I was declined for a mortgage and the situation in Ireland grows worse all the time. I’ll have to take it day by day and trust that something will come up at the right time.

  3. Barrie Shutt

    You are a tough young lady with a heart of gold , I wish you well in the future Sibylle and if I can help just give me a shout x

    1. Thank you, Barrie. You have always been there for me and my birds, with your wisdom and experience, and it’s been a huge help over the years! xx

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